Happy New Year

Happy New Year to all who stop by to visit and to all my good friends far and near! All in all it's been a very good year, the kids have grown so much in the pass year ! The summer was alot of fun watching them do all there base ball and soft ball games. I just want to say how thankful I am for my family my husband and all my online friends you all mean the world to all of us. Hoping that some things turn around in 2009 but if not hey we will handle it the best way we can so have a safe and happy New Year's eve and remember we love ya all bunches!

A little different kind of life.

A month ago my life was perfect or I thought it was anyway, how quick that changed. We were laughing at each other, joking as we always do, talking about what to buy the kid's for Christmas talking about how someday we were gonna win the big lottery! How many people we could help if we won, how much we loved each other.
Then on Dec 1st that all changed even tho Donnie wasn't in that good of health no one is prepared for a stroke , then the pace maker, then a couple more little strokes, then he is so confused he doesn't even know where he is. Now I finally have him home but he's not the same person bless his heart, he's very quiet very reserved. Every time the kid's pass his chair no matter if he's awake or not they will say I Love You Papa. He will answer them with i love you to! Why this has had to happen to such a good person i will never understand. What is down the road I can't say but i will be beside him every step of the way! I think sometimes i do need a crash course in being several people at one time a wife, mom ,grandma,caretaker and maid ! Wonder if I can find a course like that online lol.

To My Husband

Dear Donnie,
When you get to feeling better i will show you this but until then I need to get it out.
The past month I feel like I have been in a nightmare, we went from you not being a real healthy person, to a person who didn't know his right hand from his left. As you laid in the hospital bed seeing things, hearing things, and doing many weird things i have never felt so helpless in my life because I couldn't help the most important person in my life my loving husband. I have always been able to fix the problem but this time I couldn't. The stroke, pacemaker another stroke took it's nasty toll on you. I learned real fast to become a much stronger person then even I would have ever given myself credit for. I was on a mission to have everyone I knew pray for you because we do believe in God and he does answer prayer's .I had to listen to the only Dr. I trusted and he said you needed to go to Cross Pointe that's why you were there not because I put you there. We always made a pack to take care of one another and this I will do forever.This is going to be a long road babe, but there's nothing me and you and the kid's cant do together. We are a tight knit family. They have been Angel's threw all of this you would have been proud of them! The past few days going to see you have been so good, I pray they stay that way but if not I will be here for you. Monday can't come soon enough so we can get you home the kids need there dad as they call you home. I need you, your my life, my heart, and without you I am a very empty person. You coming home will be the BEST of the BEST Christmas presents I have ever received. I love you....Marge

Today was a great day!

Today was a very good day! I went to the hospital not really knowing what i would find but there he sit all cleaned up and ready to talk. I was amazed the difference in what just 1 day can make, his baby blue eyes shined for the first time in a month, he was Donnie up and down. I was so thrilled i was shaking. He said he felt really good today, he didn't stumble on anything he said today! He said that sometime this morning his head felt like it had cleared a bit. He said he had slept threw the night, he wants to see his kids as he calls them he Miss's them alot. Tomorrow may be a different day but today i had my babe back and it felt so good.

The Power Of The Gaggle!!!!!

Hi everyone, as most of you already know life as been crazy for The Cool Breeze Family since the 1st day of Dec. My sweet husband had a stroke, then his heart rate went real low and he had to have a pace maker put in, within a few days of that he had another small stroke this has left him very very confused to the point of seeing very weird things. He is some better today but he will never be the same as he was a month ago. This breaks my heart more then i can tell you but I can handle it. We are shooting at bring him home this coming Monday. I belong to the very best group of people threw a room called Latter Rain not only have they put up with my whining, and crying they have all prayed very hard for us, on top of all this they have got together and made sure that we are having the best of Christmas. Some have sent gift cards, some have sent checks, some have sent wrapped presents even for all of our animals, some have sent clothes, some have sent games but most of all they have sent love and support each and everyone of them. There is one person who i believed put all this together we call her MG she has been a god sent she called me everyday sometimes 2 to 3 times a day just to make sure I was OK while at the hospital. How can i ever repay these people I cant but they know how much i love and appreciate each and everyone one of them. They will be here for me when I feel i have no way to turn and make sure we are all OK . That's what the power of this gaggle does and that's why i am so blessed even tho I am passing threw troubled waters at this time. I love you all so much and once again Thank You!..............Breeze