Hi all

Wow it's been way to long since my last post. Sorry but my hands have been very full. We found out about a month ago Caleb may have lymphoma we have done several tests on him and the enlarged lymp nodes have shrink some, the biopsy came back inconclusive the Dr. want to wait and do another ct scan in 2 months but are regular Dr. wants a second opinion so that is where we are now. Donnie has been in the hospital several times since my last posting but seems to be doing better now. We all need your prayers. And i need some rest. I will try and update you the first of the week. Thanks for stopping by.

Update on the family!

Hi all, it's been a pretty good week, Donnie has had 1 very good day this week and the rest of them we have just learn to deal with. The kids are doing great and wishing it was Easter vacation time. The kids will soon be playing summer ball something we all look foward to! I hope everyone is ok and doing fine I will report in later and let ya know how things are going hello t my family who read here I wish we lived closer but we are only 4 hrs from my brothers so you all should come for a visit. Have a nice weekend!

Life

Hi all,I did good until yesterday and I fell apart. Am i ashamed not at all the past few months have taken more of a toll on me then i thought. I sit in our truck at the hospital last night and cry ed my eye's out, my life has not been easy. I am from a family of 9 kids by the time i was 10 my parents didn't care about me so my sister took me in and raised me. I thank God i had her. I married my child hood sweetheart had 2 miscarriages and finally got a bouncing 10 lb baby boy, when he was 3 months old his daddy was killed in a car wreck. I then married a real jerk who beat the crap out of me every other day until i finally got the guts to leave him. I swore i would never have another man in my life out of no where came the most gentle caring man, we married after only knowing each other 3 weeks and it has lasted 22 yrs this July. I got to thinking last night i dont have many talents, I can't sew, I can't craft, heck I cant even swim but I can take care of the people who really need me, I really think God has given me this gift. I am raising grand kids, and now I am taking care of a very sick husband on Dec 1st 2008 I really lost my best friend,husband and the rock i have always been able to lean on. I never even had a clue what a stroke could do to someone until now. i thought the first stroke was bad the one he had last Friday was alot worse it hit him on his left side, he can barley stand and that's with someone helping him, he slurs his speech, his left arm droops when he lays it on something, his left leg drags when he walks, but threw it all he has not lost his sweetness. I look at his once bright shining baby blue eyes and now they are dull. He is very confused but I help him threw it.
We have a love that is way beyond words I know this in my heart. I am now his rock to lean on, and will be until the good lord decides to take him. My family thinks I should place him in a nursing home there is no way,no way.Let me repeat no way I will ever do this as long as i have breathe in my body. We will some how get threw this. We have always been a team, have done everything together people have said to me how do you hang out with your husband all the time.....plain and simple I love him.I have decided to take all the good times we have shared and place them straight to the heart this will help me get threw the bad days ahead and I know there will be many.The grand kids have been amazing
they build papa a ramp, they cleaned the whole house for me last night, they were right here today waiting to get pops as they call him inside. They all told me they will help me take care of pops. They also said they will be very sad if something happens to there pops, I try ed to explain it to them that this is no longer in our hands it's in Gods hands and that we will make it threw no matter the out come. I realized even the strongest person can get weak but I had my moment and it felt OK to cry,OK to be afraid of the months that's coming our way. I am now Donnie's rock as he has always been mine we are just changing positions that's all. And together we will find our way!

Nothings the same

Hi everyone ,
It's been along time since i have posted. I guess i have been a little depressed because nothing is the same anymore. Since Donnie had the stroke on Dec 1st our life's have changed in so many ways. I am not complaining because i am really blessed but i just miss my Husband and the way he use to be. He is so quiet now except when he's trying to sleep and his mind just wont shut down, his blood pressure has been going sky high here lately. But he's alive and that's all that matter's. The kids are doing great and they seem to deal with papa very well. My dog has a tumor and it was cancer we had to have it taken off last week but i believe he's gonna be fine. We even had a dog that just showed up here, we brought her in and kept him then the dog catcher took her because i didn't have tags for her. That same night she ran away from the dog pound and found her way back here, I took her to the vet got all her shots so now she is really ours like we need another dog lol. She is very sweet but protective and her name is Molly! I have just been hanging out on the net with my friends that i really don't know what i would do without. Donnie has a OP therapist and a PT therapist and a nurse who come 3 times a week ad that seems to be helping him some. I have been getting up at 3 am to check his b/p every night because i worry so much about him having another stroke but alot of times i don't fall back to sleep.sleep just wont come. I lay there and think about many many things, I think about the kids and how far they have come in 3 years, i think about Donnie and wonder if he will ever get better, I wonder about my own children if there safe or in some kind of trouble. I wonder how people can hurt little children such as Caylee and Haleigh. I will never understand anyone hurting a child. As i sign off i hope and pray someone still reads my blog every once in awhile in the next few weeks i will try and post some happy stuff! Love ya all,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,breeze

What is this world coming to?

What is this world coming to I ask myself today as I was shopping for just household items. The stuff ya can't do without like laundry det. Shampoo, just items that you can't do without! When I went to check out my bill was 178.00 I about screamed I am telling you. Sorry folks but I myself don't think the new Pres.......... is going to be any better then the last one. I really wish we could go back to the simple things in life. Back when I was a kid we never had cell phones like kids do now days, never had video games, if you had a bike you were doing good! A good night of TV was Leave it to Beaver or good old Andy from Mayberry! I love Lucy was one of my favorites. If you mention these shows to your grand kids now days they look at you as if you have lost your mind. I really miss the good old day's . How about you?

Turning 56

Hi all this is a pic of me and the kids before Hayden came into the world.
Gosh where has the time went. This pass week I turned 56. I guess now I am what you would call a Senior Citizen lol. But I don't feel that old. Beside that I have to live along time until we get this kids grown. We have been iced and snowed in for the past week and it's really getting old I hope tomorrow the kids return to school. Donnie seems to be getting better he still has bad day's every once in awhile but we are just takeing it a day at a time. Hunter has been playing basketball and the rest of them have just been hanging out. Kaitlyn's dad sent her a cell phone hmmmmmmmm funny how he can afford that but he refuses to pay child support. All I can say is what goes around comes around so you all best watch out I have your number. I wasn't born yesterday!

Happy Birthday Donnie

Happy Birthday babe 63 years old today wow! I love you so much and we are all happy you seem to be getting better.
Hang in there you have all of us behind you! Thanks for being such a good and loving husband and such a good papa to these kids are lives would not be the same without you. I love ya babe..Marge